Daily writing prompt

Do lazy days make you feel rested or unproductive?

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Hey everyone! Long time no see. It’s been over a year since I’ve published a post on here. Honestly, it’s been a while since I’ve journaled at all. Here are some major updates in my life:

1. I applied to medical schools! I’m not in yet, I’m in a very anxious period of waiting. I’ve worked tirelessly all year for my applications.
2. I am a senior in college. I’ll graduate in the winter.
3. I went to a Kenrick Lamar concert, it was pretty good!
4. Last year I joined a hip hop group!
5. That’s pretty much the main stuff.

With today’s prompt, I realized that this whole year I’ve basically looked down at my laptop and notebooks to study for the MCAT and apply to medical schools. I barely wrote in my journal this past year, and my mental health continued to strain the longer I went without taking time to myself and relax. However, any time I did try to slow down, I’d feel nervous and jittery. I couldn’t sit for very long with just my thoughts because I’d get new ideas/thoughts about what I could be doing towards getting a better grade or better application.

The other day, I asked someone close to me “what’s your ideal day?”

He talked about car shows, traveling, and spending a night under the stars before sleeping for the night with his loved one with him.

When it was my turn to answer, all I could think of to say was “I just want one lazy day.”

I’ve realized lately, that relaxing for me is the goal; but at the same time, I can’t seem to accept pausing my work when I don’t feel like I’ve made proper progress. As I’ve connected with other pre-medical students over this last year, I’ve realized I’m not alone in this.

Pre-med students are among the most burnt out undergraduate students. From requiring a competitive and high GPA for science courses to working clinical jobs (for most students) or researching in a lab, there are some high expectations! We are stereotyped as neurotic, uptight, and anxious. To this I ask, are all pre-med students this way, or do we become like this over the years of hard work and burnout?

Usually, a lazy day for me is rest. But recently it’s become a source of feeling like I’m unproductive. However, I’m grateful to be getting back into journaling and taking some time to breathe. So welcome back everyone to my journaling blog everyone 🙂

Love, Moesha.